life's lesson

assalamualaikum everybody.

geng-ki-des = how are you?

i hope everyone in a good state just how i am right now. but, just a few hour before i was in the worst state of mind. i keep crying n thats make me think that i am useless, want to give up already. u guys might wondering WHY?. it just a small matter. a tiny part of adventure in life. a little hindrance in life. i really want to be a doctor. i want to help people. i want to give hope to people who are sick. to become like that, ofcourse i need to learn in medical programme. but, it is almost a year and a half i've been trying to get into the programme. but i didnt get any chance. i feel deeply sad and my tears burst out. i keep thinking. maybe im not good enough. but there is some reason that i can say im good but i dont get the chance. came across my mind that i feel like giving up. i been trying and trying and trying but there is no any chance left for me. it is already last sem. to change programme during degree is hardly to happen. all of that pop out in my mind like a popcorn. pop pop poppppp~~ especially when i talk with my mum.

i text my friend. tell her what i feel that time. giving up and all the loser stuff. she try to calm me down. but i just cant. i keep thinking about the 'worst case scenario'. actually it is not the worst. it just that i dont get what i want. to be a doctor. all this time she always can calm me down. make me feel all is well. but not this time.

luckily there is someone came out in my mind and i straight away called that person. chit chatting. tell ,everything. tanyer da makan ke belum. what u doing? makes jokes. and the end of the called i feel relieved. better than before. better than being calmed by friends. i feel myself become stronger.

you guy must want to know who that person right.

share your problem with your friends you will be calm down.
share problem with this person will make you keep crying with smile decorate your face, and your spirit lifting up....people we called PARENTS.......

sayonara.....wassalam...