i never thought that i will be in the same class with him again after all this time. i feel weird when he step into my class on the first day of the beginning of my last sem. wish not to see him anymore cannot be fulfilled, because everyweek i will see him. i know it, i never get over with him. i never move on. it just that i dont want to make myself hurt more so i ran away. ran away from the truth. ran away from you. but ran away just make me afraid to face it. i admit. im afraid to face it. hahahahaha 

he never done anything for me, but why, why i cant get over with it. why i cant get him out from my life. sometimes there is no answer. and the other times i feel like it just something which is not true. sometimes it fills my head until i cant think either it was the reality on fantasy. im crazy. truly crazy. its gonna be a hard sem for me. to ignored someone who i cant forget. to treat him like others it just difficult to do. my friend also said that, it clearly can be see that i totally ignored him out of nothing. hahahahaha is it that clear? whatever i write right now, is something out of my mind.