married???

assalamualaikum.....

korang mesti selalu dgr people say that..

"it breaks your heart to see the one you love is happy with someone else...
but it's more painful to  know that the one you love is unhappy with you."


aku pegang sgt dkat kata2 atas tuh. so aku tak kesah if org yang aku sayang tinggalkn aku sbb dye nk cari kebahagiaan dyeorg sendiri. become a bystander. tgok jer dye bahagia ngan org lain. if dyeorg just couple,i can accept it. sbb jauh kt sudut hati kita dye bukan la milik org selamanya. mcm mcm boleh jd. tp,boleh ke korang terima nak tengok org yang korang sayang kawen ngan org lain. menjadi milik orang lain sepenuhny. it's really painfull. tp mcm mne aku leh wat selumber jer. ciap jd mcm penasihat agi tuh. haish -.-"  ...

he want to married someone else. and dye jemput aku dtng mjlis perkahwinan dye. is he crazy!?!?!?!? but,aku pegi jugak. nak tgok la pmpuan yg dye gilakan sgt tuh. aku tolong from the start ag. tp aku xde nampak batang hidung dye. org nak kawen. busy lar katakan. tp takper la. agipun aku dok umah pmpuan yg dye nk kawen tuh. mmg payah la nk jmper. dont know why. i let myself hurt deeper.

biler hr perkahwinan nyer tibe, aku tak sure aku nk tgok akad dye or tidak. takut sakit hati nnty. at last, aku tak pegi pown. tak nak rosakkan majlis orang. n now is the time for bersanding. aku n orang lain ngah tunggu pengantin nyer sampai. tgah tnggu tnggu tu aku dgr desas desus.....

"iyer ker???dye terima macam tuh jer??"
"biar betul budak tuh. mcm mne la dye boleh terime je~~"

in my mind, ape dh jadi? ape yg berlaku n aku tak tahu nie.ape lagi aku tunggu la pengantin sampai, or dlm kata lain tnggu org yg aku syg tuh smpi. nk tnye ape dh jadi. or mybe after dye bersanding tuh ( so relax kn aku) haish...

pastu ttbe smpi la kereta pengantin. kereta yg agak standard. hahaha aku takut sgt ape yg akn jd ngan aku biler nmpk dye kuar ngan isteri dye dr kereta tuh. pintu kereta terbuka. sorng lelaki pakai baju penganting biru pekat keluar. but it not him. surprise n wonder what has happened. org lain pn dah mula berbisik bisik n wonder what happen. mcm mcm la anggapan keluar. lepas llki tuh, sorng pompuan pn keluar. sort of beautiful than me. hahaha aku wonder mne dye nieh.

ttbe pintu bhgian depan terbuka. n berjalan keluar dye ngan berpakaian sgt biasa. seluar slack hitam n baju kuning. aku jadi pelik. n in mind there is only one thing.

"he's not married~~"

dye tak jadi kawen. n pengantin yg aku nampak tuh abg dye sebenar nyer. taknak malukn family that girl, abg dye sggup kawen ngan pmpuan tu. mula mula aku pikir dye nie kejam. n ttbe terlintas soalan kt kepala aku, kenapa dye tak jadi kawen? dye bru sedar sesuatu ker. dye dtng dgn kamera kat tangan. dye jd kameraman for wedding yg sepatutnyer dye jadi raja. dye nie sihat ker tak. lagi teruk dr kegilaan aku nieh.

when he saw me, he walked towards me.

"aper dah jadi weyh"
"ive been thingking lately. and i thing she is not the one for me."
"mcm mne la ko boleh buat pmpuan tu mcm tuh. cian dye."
"i need to do it sebab i need to know the truth"
"the truth bout what? " im getting upset over him.
"the truth bout u and me" n im unable to move.

majlis perkahwinan tu dh selesai semua. aku wonder mcm mne dye boleh selumber jer ade kt majlis tu sedangkn dye da broke kn hati pmpuan tuh. spe tak sakit ati weyh biler ttbe kene kawen ngan org lain. org yg di harapkn biarkn dye sndiri mcm tuh. kejam betul lar. tp perem[uan tu dont mind. maybe becoz he already explain the things out.

ptng tuh,aku ngn dye duduk kt atas sofa. berborak.

"apesal la ko nie. kau still tak paham kenapa ko wat cm nie."
"aku rase aku lebih syg kn org lain."
"sape?sape lg yg ko sayang dr bkal isteri ko tu? ko tnggalkn aku tuk dye kan. kenapa ko wat dye mcm tuh?"
"ive met my true love. this..."

dye bawak keluar 1 kertas. n look at it n senyum sendiri smpi ke telinga. aku pn ase nk marah.aku pn amik kertas tuh. there is an information bout someone. someone i know.

"sape nie?"
"tah. takkan ko tak tahu"
"aku tahu. n aku kenal. ko kenal ker?"
"aku tahu.mak cik ko kan."

aku terkejut.mcm ne dye buleh kenal makcik aku nie. dye jmper kt mana. n more imprtnt, dye suke makcik aku??no no n never. makcik aku dah kawen. anak pn dh ade. dye nie kenapa sebenar nyer??

dye tak cakap striaght ly, tp aku rase aku tahu. he realize that he love me. if tak, dye takkan duduk ngan aku kt situ n berborak. he never done that. supposed ly dye ngan isteri dye sekarang. but he not married. and he still single. n when he talk bout 'a girl' n ttbe keluar kn info bout makcik aku, he just want me to jealous. he love to do that. hahahahaha

"fizah jom."
"pegi mana la ko nie"
"jom je la. nanti ko tahu la"
"iyer iyer. aku ikut la nie."

dye pegi jumper mak aku??

"makcik,saya sayangkn anak makcik. mcm mcm dh jadi antre kami. n hari nie sy sedar yg sy sayangkn dye lebih dr sy sayang kn pmpuan lain. except for my mother. and i want to married her."

im stumble there.unable to move. surprise. is he for real?

*when someone you love need to leave, let them go. if they are truly yours they will come back for sure. and if they are not come back, mean they are not yours from the start.*


sayonara!!! wassalam...............bubbyeZZzzz...........